Amber's Note

I am a person who is not easy to sleep.  And I don't know why, I always will think so much stuff, stuffed all mind in my brain.

Eveyday, I try to sleep, and keep awake in the day time.  Usually during the insomnia period, I drunk water, a lot of water ... Maybe I think it's a way to keep my body circulate.

"Life is something that heppens when you can't get to sleep"  FRAN LEBOWITZ

Definitely, Insomnia might be a part of life. Many people have suffered sleepless night. No matter what the insomania happened, some people might feel stressful to life, or some people just feel sick or maybe just watched a horrible movie which resulted in insomnia.

I don't know why I can't sleep offen, and try to figure out .. and to look for the resolution.

Everynight, while my boyfriend is sleeping so sweet and even snoring loudly....I feel not good at all...This is not what I image and let it happen. However, it happened, and usually....

Most of time of insomnia, I surfed the website, looked the new stuff, or read books...I love read and I am involved the situation of novel easily.

Maybe I am a person who is worried too much, but try to pretend naive. But it's not my trully personality. I thought if I pretend that I am happy, then the people surrounding me will be happy and at ease. I don't want to bother or annoy other too much. I like to conceal many things, like my past romance, or the difficulty I meet. I really want to be a person at peace and happiness.

Here I meet some people are very sincere Christian. They love pray.. Then I though maybe next I can't sleep, then I can pray. Praying is a behavior which let you feel security and peace. Yes I feel I am a person who lack of seriously security. It's like a defect in my life, I don't trust people easily. Even trust myself. Depending on the feeling of under circumstance is my usually mothod. I don't know whether it is correct way or not. Keeping feeling is very important phase in my daily life.Sometime I will anygry suddenly because I feel unfair or sad. Oh right, I am the person is really hate seperating. therefore, I will not touch people too closely, since I am not sad once seperating happened.

Recently I want to write an essay is about the devotion. What is your devotion to the people around you?  It's a difficult topic, since I am thinking a long period. Not stop guessing and drawing my story. I like to talk story and talk to others , these are all precious to me. While my story is making, I will tell it.

Ok It's morning now, I even not notice the sun is rise while I am typing these words. I could heard the early bird singing,it's should be a good day.